Well it is the second day of my three holiday. I should be getting ready for church so this will be short. I had a nice day yesterday up until the evening. I rarely choose to go off just for the fun of it. I was running down to Best Buy to pick up a piece of software for the computer that I was wanting to purchase and kept debating on doing it. I decided to go by Bath and Body and treat myself to a new container of the body cream that I was just about out of. Then the plan was to go get my groceries for the week at the store before coming on home. My car would not start in the parking lot at the mall. I had been having trouble with it back about 5 months ago. I thought the problem had been taken care of. It has power but doesn't even make a sound like it is trying to start up. I have a bad habit of panicking as soon as things like that happen. I tried real hard to keep my cool and just wait a couple of minutes and try again. I was trying to think of who I could call to come and get me. I prayed hard for help. And it did eventually start up. It naturally made me want to go directly home and not go any where again. So here I am this morning up wondering if I will make it to church. How in the world do you stop worrying about things? I know God tells us not to worry and I know that is true. But I just can't seem to grasp the concept and not lose sleep over things. Help.

Ok this is my first day since I have been back from Hawaii that things have actually begun to remind me it is over. I had a wonderful visit from my daughter during Mother's Day weekend. It is so special to get to spend time with her. Something we just don't get opportunity to do anymore. It is amazing to me how much she has grown up. She has become one fantastic lady with so much to offer. It makes me proud.



Today I got the privelage to go back to my routine of cutting my grass. As I was doing it and cussing (not really cussing I guess complaining) I decided that I want two things in life. One is to have a chauffeur and a car already paid for and all maintenace taken care of like it should be. The other is someone who can cut my grass and do all the landscaping I want and of course take care of it. I hate cutting the grass. And I have had such bad luck with people running into me and then either the police leave or let the responsible party leave. You know,I have always had a fear of driving. I did not get my license until I was 20 years old. Even then I avoided it like the plague. It was not until I was in the process of my divorce that I was forced to do more of it. From then on I have had my trials and tribulations with it. I guess that's just part of having that privelage. I know of a couple of more mature people who are no longer allowed to drive due to their ages. It is so sad and very frustrating for them. It breaks my heart when I see them unhappy but I know it is best for them. I am not sure I want to be at that point. So if I get the chauffeur maybe I won't!!!!



So I guess the let down of getting back from vacation, my daughter going back home and starting the long season of grass cutting has sparked something in me. Let's see how constructive I can be!!!

I just came back from a very enjoyable trip. It is called spending quality time with your family. Something we seem to take for granted more often than not. However when you don't have it you miss it. I thought I had always missed it but not as much as I do now. I have some very special people who are a very important part of my life. They are so precious and so dear. I found that no matter where we are as long as we are together it is just great. I have so much to be thankful for. It was such an honor to be able to share time with them. Jaci and Geni, my how you have grown up! You are so wonderful and amazing. I think back to when you were small and what pleasure you brought to my life. I sat back these vacation days and watched as you brought even more pleasure and love to everyone. You are beautiful and offer so much. Thanks for letting me get to know you again. To see you in action and appreciate the moments. Ceal, we are always together whether it is as "shadows" or long distance. You are a gigantic part of my heart and that I know is what keeps me going. If you only realized how special you are. Thanks for letting me come and thanks for every single moment we had together. I sit back now and can see and hear all of the fun times we had. It makes me cry tears of joy for the precious people in my life. If you have family around, make every moment count. Love them and cherish them.