I am up and getting ready for my trip. My stomach has butterflies just a fluttering in it. Is this for real or am I in a dream? If that is the case, don't wake me up because I am loving it.

Okay now I am really wild!!! I am a grandmother!! As of 3:29pm EST David made his presence known to his mommy & daddy and the whole family. How great God is!!! I know my time is coming to see him. I got to talk to Lil and Adam and Christy on the phone tonight. While I was on the phone with Christy they brought David into the room. He said HELLO to me over the phone. Ok so maybe it wasn't hello but OMG feed me!!!! I loved it.

Christmas is in the air. In 4 days I will be on my way to see my kids again. I am so excited. Lil is due anyday now. It could happen before I get there or after I get there. All I know for sure is that I feel very blessed. What a special Christmas and memories there will be. I just can't wait.

Well, my sister and I put up the Christmas tree last night. It was so much more fun to get to do it with her than all my myself. I have fought for several years now on even putting it up. But this year was so different. We did a very good job. I love to sit in the living room with it dark and just watch the tree. Christmas is such a special time of year. The feelings you have are so different than any other time. I love my family. I am so thankful for the change this year. There is so much excitement and anticipation this year. Between births, Christmas and birthdays. Wow we have lots to be thankful for. God is just so good to us.

It is 8:30am I am up and giving myself a pep talk for the busy schedule I have planned today. I am very excited. My family is coming home. I guess until yesterday my faith in it really happening was not very strong. But at this time yesterday morning I got a call from my sister saying they were sitting in the Los Angeles airport waiting for their flight to take off for San Diego. Oh my gosh!!! It was true and happening!!! Oh how absolutely wonderful is that.

So now all the procrastination I have done will prove to make my weekend quite the challenge. We had about 2 1/2 weeks worth of rain. Because the ground has been so soggy, I could not cut my grass. So my first project this morning will be big and major. (As I made my way down my street last night coming home from work, every neighbor on the block had already cut their grass. Just mine looked like it was unkept and overgrown. I was so jealous.) Then once I have accomplished this great feat I will move on to running all errands. Once that is done comes working in the house to make room, space and a welcome home environment for my special family. How I have missed them. And how I never thought this would happen again. I feel so blessed. AND AM I EVER EXCITED. Have I said that before?

Ok I got lots to do. I got to run. What a wonderful day!!! I hope everyone's will be that way.

Here it is 9/11/07. Six years ago today life changed drastically for many people. If you ask people what they were doing that day, most can remember exactly. I had been having trouble with a frozen shoulder and was sitting in an doctor's office waiting to be seen. Gosh it is as if it just happened. The memories are so real and livid. It's a great thing to know that this world is not our real home and that in time we will no longer have to deal with this. I pray for people throughout the world to find their way and let God be their guide. Thank you for my family and life I have been allowed to live. Let me never take it for granted nor take others for granted. God bless us all.

Well it is the second day of my three holiday. I should be getting ready for church so this will be short. I had a nice day yesterday up until the evening. I rarely choose to go off just for the fun of it. I was running down to Best Buy to pick up a piece of software for the computer that I was wanting to purchase and kept debating on doing it. I decided to go by Bath and Body and treat myself to a new container of the body cream that I was just about out of. Then the plan was to go get my groceries for the week at the store before coming on home. My car would not start in the parking lot at the mall. I had been having trouble with it back about 5 months ago. I thought the problem had been taken care of. It has power but doesn't even make a sound like it is trying to start up. I have a bad habit of panicking as soon as things like that happen. I tried real hard to keep my cool and just wait a couple of minutes and try again. I was trying to think of who I could call to come and get me. I prayed hard for help. And it did eventually start up. It naturally made me want to go directly home and not go any where again. So here I am this morning up wondering if I will make it to church. How in the world do you stop worrying about things? I know God tells us not to worry and I know that is true. But I just can't seem to grasp the concept and not lose sleep over things. Help.

Ok this is my first day since I have been back from Hawaii that things have actually begun to remind me it is over. I had a wonderful visit from my daughter during Mother's Day weekend. It is so special to get to spend time with her. Something we just don't get opportunity to do anymore. It is amazing to me how much she has grown up. She has become one fantastic lady with so much to offer. It makes me proud.



Today I got the privelage to go back to my routine of cutting my grass. As I was doing it and cussing (not really cussing I guess complaining) I decided that I want two things in life. One is to have a chauffeur and a car already paid for and all maintenace taken care of like it should be. The other is someone who can cut my grass and do all the landscaping I want and of course take care of it. I hate cutting the grass. And I have had such bad luck with people running into me and then either the police leave or let the responsible party leave. You know,I have always had a fear of driving. I did not get my license until I was 20 years old. Even then I avoided it like the plague. It was not until I was in the process of my divorce that I was forced to do more of it. From then on I have had my trials and tribulations with it. I guess that's just part of having that privelage. I know of a couple of more mature people who are no longer allowed to drive due to their ages. It is so sad and very frustrating for them. It breaks my heart when I see them unhappy but I know it is best for them. I am not sure I want to be at that point. So if I get the chauffeur maybe I won't!!!!



So I guess the let down of getting back from vacation, my daughter going back home and starting the long season of grass cutting has sparked something in me. Let's see how constructive I can be!!!

I just came back from a very enjoyable trip. It is called spending quality time with your family. Something we seem to take for granted more often than not. However when you don't have it you miss it. I thought I had always missed it but not as much as I do now. I have some very special people who are a very important part of my life. They are so precious and so dear. I found that no matter where we are as long as we are together it is just great. I have so much to be thankful for. It was such an honor to be able to share time with them. Jaci and Geni, my how you have grown up! You are so wonderful and amazing. I think back to when you were small and what pleasure you brought to my life. I sat back these vacation days and watched as you brought even more pleasure and love to everyone. You are beautiful and offer so much. Thanks for letting me get to know you again. To see you in action and appreciate the moments. Ceal, we are always together whether it is as "shadows" or long distance. You are a gigantic part of my heart and that I know is what keeps me going. If you only realized how special you are. Thanks for letting me come and thanks for every single moment we had together. I sit back now and can see and hear all of the fun times we had. It makes me cry tears of joy for the precious people in my life. If you have family around, make every moment count. Love them and cherish them.